Happy Birthday Wicked Sober: The One Year Anniversary

what does wicked sober meanOn the one year anniversary of Wicked Sober’s creation, we want to point out all the help we have received, all the support we have gotten from you all, and all the love we have shared with every individual we have met and come in contact with over the past 365 days. This year has been a total success because of every single person who has become a part of Wicked Sober, whether they be families, colleagues, facilities, support groups, addicts, or government officials; everyone has supported us in some way.

THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!

Wicked Sober is more than just a company it is the embodiment of an ideal; coming together as one united front to tackle the disease of addiction. Each person we meet gives meaning to the phrase “wicked sober.” 

Everything Wicked Sober has been able to do is because of you. Every single one of you. And we just want to reiterate EXACTLY how much that means to us.

We can’t do this alone.

We do this together. Without support we wouldn’t be where we are today, and without support, we, as one company wouldn’t be able to make a difference. We have received so much love and support from everyone in the Massachusetts area. We are proud, and emblazoned with the support to just keep on doing what we are doing. 

This one year anniversary is an important day for us, it is an important day for all of us. It means that what we are doing is working, that we are making a difference, and that together we can change the statistics, we can change the stigma, we can help families heal, we can help addicts heal; AND we can get every addict the help they want and so desperately need. 

Thank you all for supporting Wicked Sober. We are proud to have you behind us. Every person makes a difference and you have shown us that time and time again. Without you all we wouldn’t be here. 

So Happy Birthday Wicked Sober. Let’s make the next year even bigger than the first! 

-Wicked Sober 

 

Look at Me Now: Kim

wicked soberKim is only 22 years old and she has been through a lot. Aside from dealing and combating with a drug addiction for years, she just recently lost her daughter while in sobriety.

This is Kim’s Story:

Kim and I started off by talking about her daughter. She had her daughter 2 and a half years ago. She had put her daughter up for adoption. Because she was using drugs and she had just gotten out of jail, she knew that her daughter would have a better life with another family. “Its probably the only think I can think of that was right while I was using,” “I wanted her to be in a good spot, where she would be taken care of,” she told me.

2 years later Kim has been to hell and back and has managed to finally get sober. When I talked to her she had 90 days clean on that day. And she had held onto that sobriety for dear life. She lost her daughter in the midst of her newfound clean time. A month ago she found out her daughter had had leukemia for awhile. She told me, “they hesitated to tell me because they didn’t want me to worry. Since I was newly sober.” Shortly after Kim found out her daughter had leukemia, her daughter passed away while she was in treatment. 

“This is the first time I have been sober and not been smoking weed or drinking here and there,” she explains. “The treatment center Wicked Sober referred me to was my 9th program and I am only 22 years old, I have been in and out of programs since I was 16 or 17 years old.”

“This is the first time I actually wanted to come down and go to a treatment center. My whole pattern was I would go to a treatment center, I was in California most, and I couldn’t wait to come home. I was just messing around the whole time. I went to one in Dallas. I have been all around the United States and I know the geographical thing doesn’t work. But my problem is I went to all these places and I didn’t stay. I would be like oh I need to go back to Boston and it never worked for me.”

Kim was describing how the geographical change, or move doesn’t get you sober, but it can help, A LOT. 

Currently Kim is still in Florida. She hasn’t gone back to Boston this time and this time she is still sober. 

“I learned a lot about myself through treatment.”

So I asked her, “How did you get down here?” I wanted to know how she got to treatment and what the story was. 

“Well,” she tells me, “The whole thing with my mom was that I could come home after my treatment. After I was in California, I got to go home, as long as I was on the Vivitrol shot, which we all know doesn’t do shit.” “I went home and I was sober for three days and then I had an appointment to get the shot, and right after I got the shot I went and got high.”

Vivitrol or the shot Kim is referring to is meant to block the high of opiates, specifically heroin and also to diminish the cravings for it. For anyone who thinks that something such as Vivitrol will work to keep you sober, Kim’s story proves this isn’t true. I was interested in hearing about what getting high on the Vivitrol shot was like and also how ineffective it was in helping her. 

“What was that like?!” 

“It was a mess,” she says slightly laughing. “I guess the first couple hours after you get it, it’s not in your system yet so I went and got high and I felt it and I was like oh my god.” “And that was my whole plan. It didn’t take me less than 20 minutes to get high right after I got it.”

Vivitrol which is supposed to block cravings and the high from opiates obviously wasn’t working. “So the next day I went and got high again, and I didn’t feel it. So then I figured out, that alright, I am going to tell my mom that I was going to that same doctor every day to get drug tested, and I told my mom that I had to pay for my copay and my drug test and she was giving me money everyday and she would give me the money and I would go get high and I would do three bags in one so I could feel it.”

Which is the danger of Vivitrol. Addicts will use more to get high risking overdose because they can’t feel it. 

After all of this….

“Eventually my mom came home from one of her Learn 2 Cope meetings and I saw the Wicked Sober card on the table.” 

Wicked Sober helps addicts just like Kim find the best treatment centers for their needs. Not only that, they stick with you through every step of your recovery.

“So I called one of my friends who was sober down in Florida and told him what was going on. I told him about the Wicked Sober card.” “He told me to call Mike. Said he knew him. So I did.”

“I called Mike and told him I am thinking about doing a lifestyle change,” she laughs big time. Which was an understatement. She had been using heavily, shooting coke, trying to get high on opiates etc.

Needless to say Mike didn’t fall for any of Kim’s stories. She tried her best to find reasons why she couldn’t come to Florida right this second. And while she may have wanted to get her hair done before she came down, from what she told me, the point is she actually did. And from that point forward, her life began to change.

Kim ended up attending a renowned treatment center recommended by Mike and Wicked Sober, and it worked. She flew down from Boston to Florida. Mike picked her up. “I was a mess,” she says laughing again. She finished her treatment successfully, about a month long process, and eventually moved into a halfway house, where she is now.

And as for today?

Today she describes friends that show up for her, a good relationship with her family and happiness. And her life going to only get better from this point forward, isn’t that the truth. She told me she had never had a support group like the one she has found down here. She lost her daughter and she didn’t get high. When she heard about her daughter, she was not alone, people showed up in her life. 

“I was so quick to run to get high, why wouldn’t I be so quick to run and get better and change my life and not be sick every day?”

I asked her if she could say one thing to anyone hesitating to get help what would it be?  

“I would tell them, honestly there is nothing to lose, if you are out there getting high, what is going to be different, if you are going to want to change your life, you might as well as act on it. Coming down here was the best thing I have ever done. I dont have the support up there that I do down here. I am accountable for people. Like when my daughter died, word spread fast down here, and I had 25 girls at my house waiting for me. It is crazy the support I have. I was saying to one of my friends, I have like one true friend at home, but I didn’t know what a true friend was, the spoon and the needle were my friend. 

This is the best decision I have made. Out of all the decisions, other than my daughter, this is the second best decision. I never thought I could be happy….I never thought I could be happy doing the little things in life. I have no reason to go get high. . . . .”

 

 

Massachusetts crime lab tech who faked drug tests

Annie Dookhan, a former chemist at the Hinton State Laboratory Institute, listens to the judge during her arraignment at Brockton Superior Court in Brockton, Massachusetts

Annie Dookhan, a former chemist at the Hinton State Laboratory Institute, listens to the judge during her arraignment at Brockton Superior Court in Brockton, Massachusetts January 30, 2013.
CREDIT: REUTERS/JESSICA RINALDI

A former Massachusetts state crime-lab chemist who admitted to faking drug test results was the sole “bad actor” at the facility, but lax management allowed her to carry on for nine years, an official review released on Tuesday concluded.

In a case that shook the foundations of the state’s criminal justice system, chemist Annie Dookhan last year acknowledged faking tests on evidence in drug cases involving some 40,000 people from 2002 to 2011.

More than 300 people convicted of drug violations have been released from prison as a result.

A review by the state’s Inspector General found that there had been warning signs throughout Dookhan’s tenure at the Boston lab, which is now closed. In her first two years on the job, she tested more than 8,000 samples a year, more than double her next-most productive colleague.

Her high output was the result of “dry-labbing,” using only visual inspections rather than chemical tests to confirm that cocaine or other illegal narcotics seized by police were what investigators said they were.

Four of Dookhan’s colleagues at the lab raised concerns about her methods and one went so far as to keep track of her use of reagents and microscope slides because of his suspicions, the report found.

“One significant red flag that Dookhan’s supervisors ignored was her spectacular productivity, particularly after … (a 2009) U.S. Supreme Court case that required forensic drug chemists to testify in court about their test results, when the productivity of all other Drug Lab chemists precipitously declined,” the report found.

The report concluded that a lax management environment at the lab allowed Dookhan to make her own rules, but also noted that inadequate funding made it a struggle for the facility to keep up with the number of samples it was asked to test.

It found that Dookhan was no more likely than her colleagues who used scientific tests to label samples as containing illegal narcotics, striking down the idea that she had been trying to help prosecutors.

 

http://www.reuters.com/article/2014/03/04/us-usa-crimelab-massachusetts-idUSBREA231XL20140304

5 Reasons to Get Wicked Sober

wicked soberWhen we are out there, wherever we are, using drugs and alcohol, it can seem like there is nothing better out there. Its hopeless. And if there is some hope or something better out there, it doesn’t sound like its worth it. In fact, many addicts, whether or not they admit it, believe that being wicked sober is boring. They might ask, “what is there to do when you get sober?”  “I might as well just get high.”

But trust me on this one. If getting sober wasn’t worth it for this addict, she wouldn’t be wicked sober today. 

I am 25 years old, female, and I entered sobriety when I was, 21? Possibly 22. I don’t feel like doing the math right now because I have a math final coming up so I am math over loaded right now.

The point I am trying to make though, is that as a 21/22 year old I was in no way shape or form ready to have my life settle down and get boring, and if that is what sobriety was about then I definitely would not have fallen in love with it.

As soon as I worked steps and I got sober, I fell in love with everything about sobriety.

I fell in love with the way I felt about myself, I fell in love with the way I looked again, I fell in love with helping other people, I fell in love with where I lived, I fell in love with integrity, I fell in love with my friends, I fell in love with family, I fell in love with being a big sister and a daughter, I fell in love with being a good example, I fell in love with the way I carried myself, I fell in love with spirituality, I fell in love with sushi too and yoga, and lots of things. But most of all I fell in love with my life, sober.

So if you are wondering why you should get wicked sober. I am here to tell you.

Here are 5 reasons to get wicked sober:

1. No more fear, dread, or feelings of shame and guilt:

When you get sober but more importantly when you work a 5th step (I should say when I worked a 5th step) many of the feelings of shame, guilt, fear, and dread go away. When you are sober you get to know what it feels like to be in the present moment and not just that but stay in the present moment. You are happy and free knowing you are sober right in this moment. Tomorrow there will be no waking up in a house wondering how you got there, there won’t be any withdrawal, and there won’t be the dread of knowing you are going to spend one more day hurting your family and friends.

2. The best friends ever:

We survive this ship wreck together. Hand in hand. Brothers and sisters in recovery. Together we get better and together we stay in recovery. When you get sober with people you have a bond unlike any other to those people. Often times you will make the best friends you have ever known and will ever know in your lifetime because you will have beat this disease with each other. You will watch the light come on in your friends and their friends and a group of people will become not only your support but so close they are like family.

3. Not hating yourself anymore:

Most of us, when we enter into recovery don’t like ourselves very much. Why? Because according to us, there wasn’t very much to like. When you get into recovery you will realize how awesome you really are and how much you have to offer the world. You will realize that people like you. And that they love you regardless of your flaws. You will be okay with who you are. And if you try to live with integrity you will begin to not only gain the respect of others but you will start to respect yourself and your choice will reflect that fact. 

4. Remembering when you have fun:

When you are using and drinking the fun you do have is blurred, hazy, or totally forgotten during a black out. So was it really that fun? In sobriety, whether you are with friends, at a party, concert, out to eat, a show, whatever it be; you will remember it. You will make the most amazing memories of spending nights out with those best friends. You will take pictures and not look like a mess. You will have wonderful memories that are no longer turned into a sloppy, drooling, disasters that are you drinking or using. 

5. Being the person you want to be:

When I first attempted to get sober which was in 2009 I kept a journal. And in the journal my therapist had me write a list of all the things I wanted to be. She wanted me to write down the kind of person I wanted to be.

I wrote down things like: accountable, honest, loving, caring, trustworthy, respected, and integral. I wrote down being a loving daughter and friend. I didn’t actually say integral but I wanted to be a person who lived their life well even when no one was looking. The rest though I actually did put down. I still have the journal today.

And as for today? Well, today I am all of those things. Being sober gives me the ability to choose who I want to be today. When I am using the drugs and alcohol choose who I am because they control many of my actions. The need to get high makes me a liar, cheat, manipulator and all of those terrible things. Today I can make a choice to be honest, integral, accountable, a hard worker, a loving friend, girlfriend, daughter and sister. Today, I am all those things that I wrote in my journal in 2009. Today I am wicked sober. Today I am respected for my actions because when I am sober I choose to be the person I so desperately knew I could be if it weren’t for my disease. Luckily, I got sober and while I am not cured of my disease, I have recovered from it so I get to be who I want to be today. 

Anyways, if you are thinking you don’t want to get sober I think you should take a hard look at yourself and see if it is really the person you know you are deep down that doesn’t want to get sober OR if it is your disease that is telling you that you don’t want to get sober.

Why wouldn’t you want to be that good person I already know you are? Why wouldn’t you want to be wicked sober? Why wouldn’t you want to have dreams, goals, and be that person with vision, passion, purpose, and respect? 

Don’t let your disease tell you getting wicked sober isn’t worth it. Give yourself what you deserve and if you already have I am so happy we have had this talk on our journeys in life. 

Happy, joyous and free 😉

Stay wicked sober friends.

Rhea